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Previous Press for Benjamin Shaw:
"A piece of work that could stand the test of time...The solitude is palpable." - Gold Flake Paint

"It’s a reminder that some of the most powerful emotions can bloom from the simplest of raw moments." - Drowned in Sound

"You wouldn't want everyone (or anyone else) to sound to like Benjamin Shaw but I'm delighted someone does." - The Line Of Best Fit

"Benjamin Shaw is an outcast, a loner, a maverick and a freak. All of these are compliments." - CLASH Music


"Megadead is the first Benjamin Shaw album on Audio Antihero Records since 2014's "Goodbye, Cagoule World" ( It's co-released with Kirigirisu Recordings. Kirigirisu is a small Japanese label founded by Neil Debnam of Broken Shoulder and Fighting Kites, he also plays guitar on this record.

I've been working with Ben for a very long time. There's a lot about releasing records that I just don't enjoy at all anymore. But there's something about working with Ben that still feels special. It's good to feel that you are working on something that's truly a little different. Better still to do this with someone you care about. Someone who at this point has put together a pretty amazing catalogue of gorgeously strange albums.

This is a beautiful album. Electric and eclectic, filled with the beauty and brutality of Shaw's lyricism and a swirling world of musical layers, loops, madness and melody. Both fractured and whole. I don't know if you'll like it but I hope you will.

Megadead is many things, including a collaboration between three friends who met in a warehouse in London and are now spread out across the earth in Melbourne, Tokyo and New York. It makes me feel closer to my friends and to my past, which at 31 is all you can really ask for." - Jamie, Audio Antihero Records


"Hi, my name is Ben and I have made a new album called 'Megadead'. I've done a few albums over the years, this one being the 7th full one, I think. I've been pretty proud of them all but I reckon I peaked somewhere around 2012 (didn't we all). Luckily for me, it was exactly around the time I also peaked in shame and anxiety about doing any kind of art at all. Especially music... A white male singer-songwriter going under his own name? yikes.

So what's changed? I'm still doing this shit as I hurtle through my 30s. Goodbye pension, goodbye family, goodbye career. What’s your point, Ben?

The truth is, making up stupid songs and recording them in my bedroom is the only thing that gets me through each day. Going to my shitty job is rubbish. Sitting with a keyboard and a laptop on my bed and losing hours to music is magical.

I'm yet to produce anything that hasn't involved my usual tropes of 'i hate my job!’ and ‘let's run away!’ but my other half said this album is more honest than previous efforts. More open. I dunno, but I’m going to do more. Be it under my own douchebag-singer-songwriter name or something else. It’s embarrassing, but I’ve got nothing else to do." - Benjamin Shaw


released August 31, 2018

Co-Released with Kirigirisu Recordings (Japan) -

Guitar on tracks 1, 4 and 8 by Neil Debnam (Fighting Kites / Broken Shoulder)

The "Megadead" album was premiered on The Alternative -

"Terrible Feelings!" was premiered on Atwood Magazine -

"A Brand New Day" was premiered on Dimestore Saints -

"Megadead" Track-By-Track commentary by Benjamin Shaw on Various Small Flames -


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Track Name: All Body Start Feeling Down
It’s okay to go home
Track Name: Melanomates
Got a head full of hobos
A skinful of blind
An eyeful of broken
And you on my mind

Got a head full of tuna
A bed full of brine
Fold away feelings
and you on my mind

Ain't no briefcase I be holding
It be pretty long
Ain't no sad face I be showing
It's a just gone wrong

I gotta head butt
Gotta golf club
Gonna, gonna smash this whole place up

Got a mouth full of thunder
A head full of rain
A desk by the fire escape
And you on my brain

Ain't no shoulder I be breaking
It be only spine
Ain't a doughy midsection
It be pretty fine
Track Name: PUSH IT DOWN
I got things to talk about
I got hell to pay
Stupid boring piece of shit
Won’t just go away

So push it down
Turn up that frown upside-down
I got bones to pick with you
Nothing feels ok
Stupid boring, shut your mouth
Won’t just go away

Just push it down, push it down
Turn that frown upside-down

I got smarts better than this
And we similar goals
Let’s shoot our dads into the sun
And pray it fills a hole

Just push it, push it down
Turn that frown upside-down
Just push it down, push it down
Nothing to worry about
Track Name: Terrible Feelings!
Hey apocalypse, it's nice to know you still be trying
To lift me by the hips
And make believe like I be flying away,

you're all terrible people, with terrible clothes, go away
but I don't care, I got no dog in the race
So do me a solid, do me again and again
terrible feelings but I got nothing to say

Aw hey its you, I don't forget a face
Naw I'll do it, it's a piece of cake

ah've nothing to hide, I just wanna go home today
oh it'll blow over, everyone makes mistakes
Track Name: This is Stupid.
This is stupid.
Track Name: Blue Teeth Thursdays
I bring nothing to the table
It's nothing to worry about
yeah I got friends
mind your own business
I'm laughing all of the time

You remind me of my father
But I wish that you were my dad
You'd take me fishing, up on the river
And run at the first sign of sadness

So crawl out the window and down to the street
And swear you weren't going to leave
A pull on your hair and up to your feet
And push through your chest with a bread knife

all this blue on my teeth
cos i never get to see you
All of these telescopes focused on land
And I be just focused on me

And all of your friends and family hope you're keeping ok
But I don't care, Jamie
Track Name: A Brand New Day
Ain't a thing can touch me today
ain't a plan that I cannot break
got a heavy head of hollow
A belly full of grey
A big bowl of sadness
It's a brand new day

Ain't no bad will happen today
Ain't no feeling I cannot shake
Just forget it, doesn't matter
You missed it anyway
Low level waster
It’s a brand new day

Ain't nothing that I cannot do
Ain't no hole that I cannot grave
No good, could be better
I thought you'd gone away
Goodbye forever
It's a brand new day
Track Name: hole
So i dig me a hole
And i fill it with thinking
Just give me something to hold
Or something worth drinking

While I lay down inside
And drive a car through my kidneys
Cos there’s nothing to do
So fuck it all, who’s with me

There’s a hole in my head
with a hole lot of faeces
And I pray you blow up
and spray the whole world with TVs

For I done you no good
And you not much better
I got half a mind
To sleep forever

So I dig me a hole
And I fill it with thinking
But the wind takes my hat
And I blame it on people

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